Just Jensen: Immortal Sens-ualities

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Pacific Island Villa/Compound - Estate, Northwestern Region, United States
Yes, I make-up words & ramble when I write apparently. Quite the opposite face-to-face. I'm just this laid-back sweet & sensitive new young southern-gentleman on the block, takin his time to collect memories this go-around. As the humbled, honorable Chosen One of Lady Selene, moments aren't filed under "immortal" just as respect retains its thriving pulse. I've never had patience, but I'm in no hurry to shed the resonance of my heart's rhythm. *bowing in delight-filled gratitude to my beautiful Selene* Fealty pledged eternal. Insatiable always. I'm just rambling off the cuff for now. *still smiling* A comprehensive bio description is yet to be written -my bad. However, full-length 1st journal entry is posted. To know me is to know of me. I'm into so many genres of music & films & (especially Indies) Don't be afraid to get closer. Love. J

Monday, October 18, 2010

Angel

Precious Universe,

I met someone God hand molded and spoke the breath of True Life into; creating this perfect Angel that now walks among us.  Our paths have crossed despite oceans and earths.  I wanted to thank you for her friendship and our connection.

I consider our last date, our official first (after our first meeting); and it could not have been more ideal, intelligent, romantic, relaxing, and intense…all while we just got to know each other better, in ways like why a woman needs over fifty purses, shoes and the like, and yet how did I manage to have a favorite handbag and shoe designer, but then again I love my Roberto Cavallli and Prada Sunglasses.  I like pretty feet.  She has them.  I like long hair to play in.  Her long brown tresses are soft and amazing.  But when we opened herself up to sharing in my playlist of music, songs that remind me of her, I was impressed, and thrilled that she reciprocated with an awesome classic-looking chick Imelda May.  A bluesy, melodic, sultry voice over live instrumentation, new discovery referral, which I always find so fricken’ cool.   Who really wants to, has the time to (btw impossible) go looking through every cd for the gems that move and rock us? 

It was natural to be with her.  It’s so not about sex- but her ways, little subtle ones, how she doesn’t let me get blind-sided by holding back info, the fact that Vickies get almost as much attention from her as they would from me.  I like smart.  She’s crazy smart and has a great sense of humor.  It is simply the nearness of her (as that song from Nora Jones).  And it’s her laid-back style that’s exactly what I need in my world right now.  I must admit, she’s getting the amp’d up J, when I am usually the calm one.  But I hope she loved the time we shared as much as I did.  I can’t wait until we have more, and what treasures our next date hides.  Well hides would be the wrong word, especially since we have quickly established honest, upfront communication.  As per my Code, I really can’t waste time with trivialities like that.

This friendship reminds me of that piece I posted called ‘If I’m Feelin’ You’ a month or so ago.  She is at the helms and I am enjoying our long walks in her gardens.

Remember back when you where a teenager sneaking on the phone & talking low all night?  I am that teenager right now.  I’m crushing ya’ll!  Help me -J :D

P.S. May my bbg never feel lost again, not even for a moment.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Suicides

Salutations Universe and ALL My Beautiful Beings in Attendance for Life,

Here are the tweets I posted this morning:
A close friend barely escaped an attempted suicide 1 1/2wks b4 mass death news. CAN reason B found btwn chaos&sorrow of a dead 13yo gay boy?
What if that ignorance knocked on my Fam’s door with its Intolerance against creed, color & origins of which WE R MANY? Violence-2-deaths.
I dislike concepts of weighing values of Beings, at all. But even w/out “elders” Us kids live by a Code & it doesn’t accommodate losses.
I’ve learned that GlenLivet is smooth&comforting 2 a point of course more of a distraction is every single thing I can’t help, reach or love.

Here are my first jots at random ranting about all this:
I decided not to tweet and blog through tears. So I basically disappeared.  Nasty world this is becoming –yea?  ‘Cuz to look back, there were never so many humans/beings on the attack.  I mean what kind of epidemic is that?  Lives are being cut short on so many levels & for SO many reasons, often (at least recently) escalated by the fuel of the idiotic thoughts (and lack thereof) of superiority (that they don’t even believe) & complete lack of respect & tolerance towards another Being.  Whether color, race, breeding, beliefs, whatever differences lay between.  It’s been a few weeks now, but still when I think, about just ONE student whose only need, was to get through his or her school day safely……I start to freak, hands shake, head screams, can’t sleep.  Why was that Being’s walk home made to be such a mountainous feat?


To whom it may concern,
You’re hatin’ who’s in the mirror so bad you feel like draggin’ a little kid down with ya? WTF?  And you choose him just because of who he was?  At 13, I bet he probably had 10-times the insight than you on his Whos and Whats, identity new but secure…..but along comes your ass & tries to beat out all that is pure!  My frustration and pain lend way to heartache’s strain, in the highest form of anger my physical body can contain, without all these words becoming blurred again, free from restraint, I hate.  And hating isn’t how I live, my code’s of respect honor & love of all, but right now you’re a part of all & I can’t see around your acts, I can’t wrap my mind around the facts that this whole thing didn’t have to go down anything like that!  And I don’t care ‘bout your excuses, from the wrong side of the tracks, undisciplined & never taught the right way to act, void of conscious now? Pick one fault & stick with that!  Fuckin’ liar & coward & sucker, hope you get sentenced so long your bedmate wears out that ass!  *calming myself & making every effort to breathe* You know what ignorant bastard, eventually I’ll be able to handle this with more couth, but for today I had to vent your poison & rant all about you –waste of space perhaps, but these last statements come from my heart, in truth, straight to you.  If we were eye-to-eye, I’d take my time (like days), face-to-face, hearing you plead your case, to no avail, but open ears, to hear every single formation of every single one of your tears come pouring from fear, taunting’s what you like to do?  Taunting is what I’d do to you.  I’m a professional in such things, quickly have you at your end over & over & over again, hangin’ from a buildin’, in crash-test-dummy conditions, under water then up again beggin’ to let you drown but I’ll give no such permission.  But don’t get me twisted, you’re not a mark with the goal of submission.  Silly boy, I do want to know what was your purpose, what were you thinkin’ & why………but honestly I want to kick your ass until I FEEL A LITTLE BETTER before sending you packin’ to Hell like swattin’ a fly, cut your life short too…..so I can finally get some shuteye.  Just J. 

Btw just because I possess what it takes to end a life, or torture one, does in no way kick me into some category or stereotype (here we go with that intolerance again), placing a white label on my lapel with "Violent Beware" in big red letters.  If violence was to be Your last resort, wouldn't it be prudent of you to become at least familiar with it?  

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Cheer-up

Hello Universe & Observers,

A close friend of mine is in the hospital; so please pray for healing and to be restored to 100% health.  I’ve been at his side, try to make him laugh etc… Got him a private room, so we were watching Dane Cook, Katt Williams, Ellen DeGeneres, Chris Rock,  and a few others, before he fell asleep and I crept out until tomorrow.
            Even as a potentially new Bodhi brother, in training and testing mode; he is assured the best quality of healthcare, resides in our compound, and as soon as he’s released, will have a few different individuals, mainly THC, watching over him; and keeping his attitude and energy in his suite.  He need him for a special invite only California contest with the main prize being fifty grand.
            Going for a nice long motorcycle ride tonight, currently alone; but who knows. ;p  I do miss conversation with the elusive Angel I keep missing online due to her U.K. time. But I’m heading out & hope to see her later on.  Any new friends, or if I hadn’t talked to you in a while; please comment here, or send me a tweet.  I always write back.
            Much Luv – J.

Oh yeah, another banana pic. I think crazy Will had just gotten her digital cam & was walking around telling every (but Ice) to pose! I'm silly, get use to me! :P








Monday, September 20, 2010

Recuperation

Good Morning/Late-night Universe & Observers,
It is I, Jensen, just relaxing tonight; turned down a party invite {which I’ll be slightly remorseful about tomorrow when I hear how much fun everyone had}.I consider that a small price to pay for the chance to recharge my batteries after the month I’ve had.  Good thing we made it a point to document as much of our crazy nights be it phones, digital or disposable cameras and video recorders!  Most of us have some gaps here & there anyways. :)
I miss talking to my special friend “The Beautiful Angel I Found” on Twitter; as we keep missing each other, whether it’s time zone differences or just opposite sleeping patterns. *sigh* I hope to catch up with her soon.  You ever find yourself missing someone you never thought would across your mind so often, and then linger there, like there’s some magic way to summon them? :) She has so many rare qualities…..”A Keeper” my fam would say. lol Intriguing, intelligent conversations, great sense of humor, equipped with a crazy dog & a rp side gig with a vamp. I wanna play with vamps and weres (other than my fam/associates etc… that is. Sounds fun to be creative & play out things in a personable way like that.
            Btw, it looks like Selene is ramping up my preparations in a few weeks (after I’m back to 100%), combat training is already scheduled and my ‘nutrient’ intake will be increased as well.  I haven’t brought it up to her in months (even though I thought for sure she’d turn me for my birthday this month); because I know her enough to know she works in her own timing.  She did mention something about the possibility of introduction to emotion control training/mastery as one of my first ala carte abilities.
            That’s all I got. I’ve gotta go do some work over at the brand new Bodhi Compound on some new ideas with my bro Europe for our next battle in TX coming up next month.  Then I’m retiring to my lavish boudoir back here at the main villa, so I’ll be able to share a rare early breakfast with Selene; before heading straight for the beach, surfing probably, I haven’t decided yet.
            So everyone enjoy your lives!  Here and now is what’s most important!  If you haven’t told someone you’ve been meaning to call that you love them –pick up that phone, or text, or email, or post card to let them know today! And do not forget to get your laugh on!
            Peace.
            J.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Exhaustion

Oh dear dear Universe, it’s J, been awhile I realize,

In addition to being tied up in several aspects of the relocation efforts to occupy two of the eventual three new properties: “Pacific Island Villa” and “Bay-front Bodhi Compound”; I was also cornered by seemingly everyone I know, to go out kickin it for my birthday!  I was getting bday lap-dances, gourmet food and 5-star establishments complimentary to me and a growing entourage.  My Fam & close-knit circle, quickly grew to close associates & choice business liaisons.  After a week, we had almost tripled, picking up cool down-to-earth people of every origin imaginable.  It got pretty rowdy at that point.  We  were rolling up to clubs (mostly underground lounges offering an “open door” welcome policy and privacy accommodations we need) 1-2 drivers/hosts jumping out to open doors & connect with the other dozen THC driving and/or hosting in one of the many vehicles (7-10) of our swelling convoy.  Since most vehicles were extended, or SUVs; they had to buy out portions of parking lots as we club-hopped.  It got crazy for real!  But everybody knew better not to wild-out too much or cause any problems that would be disrespectful or outright stupid…..Which allowed single entourage member to have fun, whether Human or not.      
I use to say, a party (or a club) ain’t a party til someone gets kicked out or passes out in the driveway.  And it didn’t take much to achieve both, and then some –some things that will remain unsaid, even though it didn’t happen while we were still in Vegas.  I partied hard after working hard.  But that’s a lot to take on everyday all day & all night, for almost a month. I’m only laughing now, because the total project is over halfway complete; and I survived burning the candle at both ends & I’m sitting here in my bedroom suite, jotting this before I take a quick shower.
Selene has excellent taste, of course, and an adoration for water like I do; thus all three properties are just off the shores.  And she must have invested some serious time in locating the perfect addresses that would provide privacy, security, and physical separation from the Master Villa, while offering the convenience of comfort, being under twenty minutes away from each other.
I am in love with my new digs I can tell you that!  Selene would discuss some of the property project stuff with me & I even went out scouting with her a few times.  But she made it clear that I wouldn’t see either of my actual rooms (at the Bodhi Comp or at the Pacific Villa) until she was ready.  They are both amazing!  I’ll take more pics; but I think my brother & lil sis are charged with creating our “Fauroux-Sterling Family” website. 
It’s purpose is for business transactions, designer showcases, virtual tours, and real estate dealings etc…  But I’ve been told we’ll probably have a link to “us”(named whatever, for family) where we can post our personal family flicks-like our vacations, blog, and figure out a way to have a functioning calendar, so all of The Bodhi Order’s live sets, road trips, rare auditions, booking info, lots of stuff. 
But right now, I’m not worrying about all that.  This will be my first night (day) able to use some of my b-day gifts; such as my brand new hook-up at the B.C.; where there will be some serious sleeping going on my amazing new pillow-top sleigh- bed.  I’ll be drowning in bliss with 1,000tc Egyptian sheets, double down comforter, and about a dozen down pillows.  I’m yawning just thinking about it. :) In fact, that’s the one and only concern I do have (with either “home”); my decreasing ability to physically wake up and get out of the bed to start my day, which usually begins with laps in the pool.  But less and less has that been taking place, being so busy in general; but also because my bed has become too soporific, relentlessly holding me hostage.  Now that there’s all this new, soft, cloud-like substance everywhere; I’m ushered to bed like it’s heaven itself.   
So, now that I’ve caught ya’ll up, I’m primed for some shut-eye right now.  :)  Btw I still jump on Twitter more than blogging &you can send a DM that I will reply to asap.

*Sending positive energy & joyous spirit out to greet you* J.


P.S. I also received a new bike “to ride-out my woes”. :) Shout out to the giver, certainly reading this long mess to witness my confession.  Yes, I admit that I fell on my second run out, trying to turn too low (as I’m pictured-before wiping out) & disregarding the typical process of getting to know your toy (whether jet-ski, boat, bike, sports car) before you go showing off with it.  I am blessed not to have gotten permanently injured; just walking away with lots of major bruises, some scrapes & cuts, and a horrendous headache. 




Friday, August 27, 2010

Jet-Skis!

Good-day Universe & All!

If you haven't guessed yet, I'm a total water-baby!  I love the ocean most of course, but lakes, pools, whatever LOOOOOOOOOVE it!  So today we're takin' out our new jet-skis down by the beach front prop. & race these bad boys. The dealer said they're 1 of the fastest out in 2010, so we'll see: Kawasaki Ultra 260 XL 2-seater is the 1 got, in blue (prev. post).  My sister is a flashy little somethin' in every way -so she got the next model down in the brightest color they had called something like frickin-blinding-bright-florescent-green (lol) or close; with all matching gear, down to her bikini bottoms & goggles. *shakes head* Im just glad to be gettin' her out for fun after every that went down over the past week.  She's bringin' her 2 girlfriends that get along great with my buddies I'm bringin' so it should be cool & fun should be had all around.  Then there's our 2 drivers, {from Random} that can provide us with entertainment & possibly nourishment for a couple.  ;p  So they'll be like 12 of us, once everybody gets there.  Im stoked!  Oh & I asked Destiny (Fae, Concoctor-Extraordinare) to come hang out too; so she can keep the refreshments comin', serve up anything Chef put together for us & anything else we might need. *sippin now of course*  Hitcha back later hopefully. J.

Btw there's pics in previous post of some folks comin today.

Me laxin' earlier, couldnt sleep, great day 2 enjoy!

Pix2Day


Here's some of who's kick' it today; Jolene X Jordan Will(course) Jayce HandsomeRob(like in Italian Job) Sarah Attitude-Amy MJ John Lauren
Me & My new shades :]


X-Cool as hell-Driver 1



Rob loves Rob pics
1 Vain female, follower

Bored at a Beach Wil -Seriously?
Jayce aka Prettyboy



The girl has constant 'tude



Thursday, August 26, 2010

Battle

Alas my dearest Universe and Observance,
This morn finds me still weary from the past week’s battles.  Having to run a crew through baby sis’s old hood was not nearly as fun as I had in mind –even though we got the job done.  The Bodhi Order takes the win again. As if there was a doubt.  Miles & Willow are the real fighters who crave I should say.  But since Will was the subject, she couldn’t be involved beyond a certain point, which became a problem all around.  But I ended up having to command the stubborn girl to stand down –I hate doin that to her.  It wasn’t like this was an assassin-type mission in the first place, but if we needed to play that card, I asked my good buddy Chase to hang back, low, just in case.  I know she wanted to pull the trigger, but her safety was most important, compelling her to understand the value of her life to me.  The deal I made with her was to find a role for each of her too closest (Jordan and Sarah) to help. I wasn’t happy about using Sarah because I’ve never seen her put foot 1 in front of foot2 without Will’s presence.  I gave her something easy, luring, seeing as she was pretty/easy, I figured she can’t mess up something she’s been doin on the regular.  She did ok. I brought Jordan with me, cause I could best make use of her abilities.  I was only point man on this, while Europe (Bodhi Brother) took the reigns & stood as Key when the fighting started.  He’s our greatest asset & others’ greatest fear.  One of these days I’ll tell you all about everybody in the crew. I wanted to let you know that after working the plan: Selene’s calculations & Bodhi’s ways follow through made it happen & we came out on top.  But yea, gotta love it when we come together in action, whether it be on the dance floor in a warehouse battling or in physical combat with a crew for one reason or another out in the field.  We’re back & gonna celebrate as soon as everyone’s had bountiful r&r.  Sleep fell upon Willow quickly as I held her in my arms since the first day we got back, preferring my room, near me, over any in the house.  Lately, not knowing why slumber eludes me, is eating up at me.  I’m frustrated.  I text for a triple of my drink on the rocks to be brought up to my room, so as not to disturb Will. I kiss her forhead & smile.  I love the hell outta her.   J.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Laps

Universe & Listeners,

The eve is ripe for some laps by light to release some extra energy tonight. I only wish I had some company to make things a little more interesting, so I might find myself engaged in some pleasant convo with a lovely mind, energy flowing through the waves of the pool without blocking the waves against the shore. Aren’t those sounds just tranquil to your core?

Got my laptop poolside, brb ;]
J.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

"If I’m Feelin’ You"

If I’m Feelin’ You - Let me say, here’s what I’ll probably do, because now that I’m intrigued, I’d be pleased, if you’re feelin’ me too

I’ll need to graze over you with a gentle strength- restrained- coursing through my veins tender & true

I may need to press pause, to ask of your name. But when I press that play button, I’ll hit you right back with my brief introduction. My name is Jensen Sterling and I’m glad to have a few moments of your time & attention. You should know that I’m honest, void of ulterior intentions

So far I like how it feels in Your Presence.  And My Essence is of pure nature, like hand-picking grapes straight off the vine to unite in their next life as the finest of wines

One with the Universe, from the Soils to the Skies, Am I.  Reborn, into naughty and wise, revealed through open eyes with nothing to hide

I’m all in, stepping forward, closer, to lower, my pulse racing inside

I want you to absorb some of this raw energy while it’s carrying the passionate force of a towering black shadow, so close to your open pours, as every hair on the back of your neck is lifted by Its Breath

Touchless.  Intense.  Tell me.  Are you enjoying the resistance?

Don’t get me wrong, it’s crossed my mind; whether your skin would respond to my touch, with a tingle or a cry- But today I’m not even tempted to look between your thighs.  Besides, we just haven’t enough time & I’ve got my sights set quite high.

Now I think I’m feelin’ your vibe, alongside mine, like the perfect bass line, to what could end up being Our Song, if we risk access to each others’ Mind’s Third-eye.

Tell me.  Will you say yes to allow me the honor of a journey inside?
I have no desire to guess.  But, I absolutely longgg to seek & find.

Listen. Trust me.  It’s far more fun than the drink that other guy’s offering to buy.

From jump.  Up front.  Where we take this is up to you, than I, to decide the direction & pace of our stride.  Ladies 1st at all times.

And should it transpire that our findings don’t quite align; it’ll be like a hard copy of sheet music, embedded during our ride, if you ever think about these few soundtrack moments we shared time

Even though you strolled your way & I strolled back ‘round mine-

The 1st words out of my mouth still reside.

If I’m ever Feelin’ You, maybe somewhere down the line; I will always be able to close my eyes and press rewind. 

{written by J. Sterling august 2010}

Sight

...Continued from first post to the best of my memory (including my virtual beat-down for f''ing up & forgetting something again), meanwhile I've been working diligently on improving my recall, cause these were certainly not my proudest moments I'm about to share!

*advance warning - i'll probably be hopping around time frames & convos -hope you can follow - lol*

(DIRECTLY CONTINUED) My feet barely hit the slate-tiled patio and instantly there were swords cutting through each of my temples reaching all the way across my forehead & face so painful that it crumbled me to the grass holding my eyes with my palms. Even though it was only the 2nd time anything like that ever happened in my life, Selene was mega distraught & warned me about protection (like an idiot, I forgot!). It didn’t take me too long to get up & lunge back into the refuge of the house. I leaned all the way back on the chaise for a moment to catch my bearings. Just then I hear the “Airplanes” chorus aka my ring-tone. My head is down looking at my phone, so when I raised just my eyes & scrunched my brows to look up, my glare was intentionally very ominous. It chased little miss blonde narc back to the kitchen in terrified fury. Rat. Hate rats. Tasty treats alone isn’t going to get you off my s#it list now tiny-tot.
“Tell me what happened J”, although she was calm, I could tell she was on her way to look for herself. I hated putting her through excessive stress or interrupt her daily schedule. But Lade Selene does exactly what she wants, regardless.
“I forgot my glasses before I went outside Selene. I am so super sorry! Please forgive me, please Selene don’t be mad?”
“This is hardly a matter of forgiveness Luv. I will be there directly. We have some things to discuss. I love you. See you shortly.” And she hung up.
I closed my phone & just stayed where I was, sitting on the chaise, & waited for Lady Selene to appear with more than questions; or she wouldn’t have driven back.
*I feel ill whenever I THINK about how awful the 1st time it happened was. I was throwing up & in so much pain I could hardly bear it, it was really so bad. I didn’t leave my room, nauseas with a headache & had the drapes drawn for over a week like someone had set torches to my eye sockets. I had somehow made it all the way out past the patio & into the pool! Dick move for sure. What could have been so heavy on my mind today that I forgot about how miserable I was that entire week? Not to mention the backlash for slippin up. I’m sure I wasn’t expected to get myself into trouble so quickly. In foresight, Selene had several things in motion long before my stupid accident & this was just one of them. I had no clue at the time, because she was always there for me; but there was just under a week left to complete her order for some sunglasses “specially crafted for my eye sensitivity” she said. That’ all that came out of Selene, was a calm voice that told me everything was going to be alright & to trust her. Which of course I did, when she said it’d all be over soon; there were some last minute modifications she was waiting on. I never asked her any whos or whys. I blindly trusted every word she uttered out of love. A kind of connection that seems to grow deeper with each additional “enhancement” & I felt proud that she professed me as her Chosen One, & sealed the deal on looking after me, so I knew she wouldn’t allow undue harm to come to me. I longed for her intimacy, the way only she could, but she refused again & again, but I still bring it up because I’ll never stop wanting it or wanting her near me whenever she traveled or just wasn’t available. It would be her or no one at all I told her once. So she said “Then I guess I no longer have to tolerate your begging any longer.*
I heard just one car door close, which told me she had been out running errands by herself without a driver or purchases to bring into the house. All of her Manolo Blahnik’s made this unique tapping rhythm on the entrance floor, which today, made me exhale because they tapped slow but sure. I’m thinking I could handle that combination. I stand when she reached the room, “Afternoon Selene.” I just looked at her beautiful face apologetically. I plead my case already, stupidity in forgetting.
“That is your response to me after doing something I felt your promise not to would be enough, if not your respect for my commanding you not to -ever?” I am going upstairs for a moment & will be right back down. Please reconsider what you would like to say to me Jensen.
“Yes Ma’am.”
Once Lady Selene returned, she found me in an even worse state. I was playing around, at least it was with Isyss; but still. Dick move. I’m sure it appeared I wasn’t taking her seriously. This could not have been farther from the truth. I just got carried away; honestly the volume of the sunglasses delivery was overwhelming, especially with all the major designer brands Selene had chosen. However, during my play-time I was carefully observing the extent of attention to detail with a tremendous sense of good taste it look to pull the collections & their hand-made curios together on such short notice.
Just inside the double-glass patio doors, with those custom-no-light drapes (you know the ones with a billion tiny pin-holes instead of being solid fabric), keeps light out & lets air in if blinds are always closed. Although now there was a mounted cabinet with latched doors placed to the left of the windows. It was made for the sole purpose of safely housing and organizing all of my new sunglasses. Once I realized the true retail of what most pairs cost (later on the internet-kept to myself), I thought there should be a lock, not a latch on the cabinets. Yes, plural. Later that day I found another cabinet using the wall like the fish tank in the entertainment room, built through the wall so you could see one of the 175 gallons housing colorful saltwater fish from either side. The new home for the world’s greatest glasses collection was indented into the wall just around the corner of the front entrance. This one looked more like a crystal curio cabinet to add to the semi-formal rooms it could be seen from. The silver designer labels of the trendy styles were on the inside lip of each drawer. So I could “get familiar with the brands”, they told me. Although, admittedly, for the 1st time I was so bedazzled that my limited brain function missed the important things Lady S. was telling me. The whole occasion was awe-inspiring, in conjunction with the special care given to provide me with gifts I can choose from anytime I’d like. TheGoddess wasn’t helping either (probably on purpose) because she was going through the velvet lined cases reading aloud the descriptions on the drawers making this comment or that, “Oh Jensen! Try these on BabyBoy!” I hope I grow out of the way I feel when Isyss calls me that.  Dammit. She reaches over & places them on me, so close I inhale her signature fragrance & wonder how long it will linger. “Well isn’t BabyBoy a Sexy Beast!” She switched to the smoke-shaded unisex Tag Heuer Zeniths & off we go, dancing & playing model with her & this enormous selection of ultra-dark shades. I was peeking over the top rim when I passed a hallway mirror & paused for only a second. I could’ve sworn my eyes looked deeper blue than before. I shook it off, couldn’t be. I know Selene hand chosen every pair personally, which made the gigantic collection extra valuable to be. I thanked her with all my heart & flossed some posing looks her way, like some model’s pouty or surprised look on my face. She laughed, enjoying my enjoyment.
Lady Isyss slipped on a pair of grayish/violet Burberry Aviators, looking fabulous, she voiced “Looks like Selene is spoiling you my dear boy. This pair alone costs $500!”
“You’ve gotta be kidding! I stopped. Seriously Selene?” I took off the pair I was wearing & gently placed them back where they belonged.
“Yeah, seriously Selene?” Isyss said mocking me, but looking straight at Selene.
“Someone, either one of you, please tell me these glasses are all not over $500! That’s crazy!” I looked back & forth between them fast & furious. “Why get me all these awesome shades I feel like I can’t even wear in case I break ‘em? ‘Cuz you both know I’m not going to. Or lose ‘em, like my last pair.” I frowned
“Stop-it Isyss.”
“Failed that little pop-quiz didn’t ya kiddo?” Isyss flashed a million-dollar-model smile from behind another pair of Roberto Cavalli’s she wore well, before moving on to the Prada collection.
“Lighten up Sel!” With a big drawn-out roll of the eyes, Isyss finally admitted she was totally kidding & all Selene did was invest a ton of time acquiring just the right ones especially for her Chosen One. “Not that it’s your business young man, but the 25-30 g’s was well worth it, just to see your reaction to the 1st case!”
“But since I know full well she bought extras for family & friends & if you don’t mind J, I am going to help myself to a little more fun flossin’ today!” she exclaimed, rattling off a few designers she loved “Carrera, Burberry, Wow! Prada galore!”
“Looks like there’s over 20 Pradas in this cabinet alone!”
"I know,” I said after a few minutes then I continued playing model with Isyss (also using major brain power to recall playing with Isyss last, if at all), when I looked up & found Selene was gone.
I got up & ran to the east wing where Selene was most likely to have disappeared.
*Bowing in respectful submission* Silent & still awaiting her, like I should have when I knew she was on her way back here to speak with me.
“J. Come with me.”
I followed obediently, directly to her right.
We walked all the way down & back to the far edge of the rear of the house where the other cabinet was mounted. She unlatched & opened the doors, sliding out the velvet-lined drawer marked “Roberto Cavalli – Armonia 239S”, holding her most favorite style from what she purchased so far. The drawers were made to equip a small stock of glasses for duplicates in each drawer, or to simply move drawers & shelves around to accommodate the versatility I may need in the near future. It would always be an option to get another case made; but this collection between the two cabinets would surely last me, her, Isyss, & even many guests, a long time. Some additional Sport/Waterproof designs would trickle in as available. I soaked it all in, with my quieted mind, and understood. “I appreciate your generosity Selene”.
“I think you know I could care less about a show of gratitude. And no…My Chosen One…*she sighed & paused*… This is not a game or something you can afford to “just forget” to do. Do you hear me right now? It is quite clear you missed every syllable the 1st time I said this to you.”
“You want me to wear ultra-dark sunglasses when I go outside.”
“Put these on,” she shook her head and handed me a pair of Tag Heuer’s Sports”, go out there & swim a lap & come back to me.”
I did as she said, already in my trunks. The immediate shock came as soon as I stepped through the sliding-glass door out from the house & onto the patio. It was just as dark as if I was in my room asleep during the day hours with thick shades drawn. I couldn’t believe it! Even after being submersed, swimming my lap in the water, the sky when I got out & everything else in my outside world adapted to my vision through these sunglasses. Astonishingly clear!
“I see they’re no ordinary glasses & understand now Selene.”
“Ha. No Jensen, you could never fathom what supremacy these glasses hold, crafted in ways that only provide enhancements for You. These took time for good reason & the entire set is truly Yours. Listen closely now…I don’t need you to understand the sunglasses My Darling. These are one aspect of my gifts of protection to you, as you are prepared to truly be mine if after due time you so choose. You pledged your Fealty so willingly & sooner than anticipated, but no worries here. That set steps in motion for us Jensen. Our allure towards one another is only the beginning. If you haven’t already, you will very slowly start to experience other un-commonalities. I cannot explain everything with answers that will satisfy all of your questions now, and some I may never reveal to you; but this is where your trust comes in again. I could easily coerce you, you know that; but I would prefer you genuinely draw near and listen more closely to me,” she grabbed my shoulders pulling me as close to her as possible, “can you feel me now J?”
“Yes, o-o-f-f co-co-urse,” I managed to get out, feeling nervous. I wanted nothing more than to be as close to Selene as possible, whenever & wherever possible. My heart fluttered & I caught myself holding my breath in such close proximity.
“You MUST ALWAYS wear a pair of THESE (referring to the cabinet) sunglasses outside & in the occasional ultra-bright indoor light. I could care less which pair; but it MUST be a pair of YOUR sunglasses, from one of these cabinets & keep a spare handy for emergency. Do you understand me this time? Jensen, this is critical to protect you. I need you to understand there are NO other options to this. And it is not acceptable to borrow a pair from someone either. If you lose a pair while you are away, call me, Isyss, one of the THCs & one of us will come bring you a set or send someone we trust to do so. Such a task is not meant for just anyone J, these glasses are of the highest importance. Both cases will have digital access systems by the end of the week. I don’t care where you are. You should store a couple pairs near your common areas & in each vehicle you may drive or ride in. I bought plenty of matching carrying cases as well. They are in the very bottom drawers of both cabinets. Are we clear? Do you have any questions at all for me Jensen?”
“I am crystal clear Lady Selene...the-”
Cutting in, “when we are alone in the house, I hope you feel close enough to call me Selene." and flashing that sexy, "end-of-the-conversation" smile at me burned her words into me & sealed the deal.
“More than comfortable Selene, thank you. Now I was smiling & probably blushing like a school-boy. Are you mad at me for forgetting?...I…I mean doing something so stupid?”
She embraced me close, “I love you too much to stay mad at you long, even if I were. You must learn to listen to me though J!” she was gazing up in to my eyes now. “We’re going to have you start personal training sessions in hand-to-hand combat soon as well. The last thing I want is someone stealing your glasses for kicks & giggles, creating a not-so-funny –situation, while they jack you for one of my favorite cars.”
“But Selene, I can fight!”
“No, Luv, you cannot fight,” she laughed. I grabbed her throat, forcing her to the ground on her back in a choke hold, straddling her. She really smiled now. I think she could feel my slight growth against her.
“As sexy as that was, “ she said easily flipping me over, way too easily, so she was in the alpha position with a much firmer grasp of my throat as she continued talking like nothing happened. “Besides, Isyss said it’s time. “ I was glad I could hardly breathe, rendered still & silent from her choke-hold; so I could avoid any conversation about my full erection she had to have felt before she jumped up & brushed her suit & hair straight. “I must get back to my errands Luv.” And by the next moment, she was starting her engine peeling down the drive-way.

I grabbed 2 different rubber sports style Pradas on my way to the kitchen to snatch-up a chilled pitcher of my new favorite (& most craved) frozen drink to bring out to the pool with me, along with my laptop. I was gonna lounge out, get some work done, & keep sippin' all day in lieu of me finding more trouble to get into.

I'll try & post again soon. It gets time consuming in constant learn-mode sometimes. Forgive.
Love. J